This has been a shitty week. Plain and simple. No sugar coating. No pretending. I have cried every day this week. And then last night, life once again threw me one of those heartbreaking curve balls. I am sick of them. Call me selfish but I really want something good to happen to me and to happen for more than just a minute……
I am: Pissed off. Hurt. Sad. Fed up.
(via fuckyeahhappy)
This, pretty much, sums up how I have felt this week….sure do hope the smile is coming back soon.
(via taylorcthomas)
Today I was reminded, once again, that God is listening. He is listening and He will answer. All you have to do is talk to Him. Be honest. Be open to hear the answer. Believe that He will answer. Accept the answer when you get it. (remember - sometimes the answer is not exactly what you were wanting to hear….you have to trust that it is right though).
It is amazing. Absolutely amazing. It puts a smile on my face - knowing that even when others let you down, He never will. Ever.
I am learning to appreciate the small gestures. Those things that most people wouldn’t even pay attention to. To hear what someone is actually saying instead of being so focused on getting them to say something, the way I want them to say it. There is a beauty in this realization. A comfort that makes me smile. I may not be going about this the way the rest of the world does. It may not make sense to those that are standing on the outside looking in. I know there are those that think I am crazy or that this is crazy. But it works. It is opening my heart and my mind. And both have been closed for so long…..I am going to grow old with this man. And he is going to grow old with me. Watch.
Have you ever wanted something so very badly that it makes you physically ache?? Ever wanted to tell someone something so badly but did not out of fear? Have you ever? Oh, I have. I do.
Mommy, ahem Santa purchased this. Can’t wait for Christmas morning!!!
I am my own worst enemy. Everything can be going along just fine and then BAM! There I am. Opening my impatient mouth.
Self-sabotage?? Maybe. Fear of rejection?? Probably. Selfish?? Could be. Stupid?? Absolutely.
I get on my own nerves. But love his heart….he is like the Energizer bunny. He just keeps putting up with me and putting up with me. Not sure how many more dumbass things I can do before he checks out. I need to stop it.
I LOVE this show! I can’t get enough of it. In fact, I bought the soundtrack this weekend. It has been on repeat since Saturday and I don’t see it coming off anytime soon. It makes me smile!!! Seriously. If you have not been watching….get with the program and chchcheck it out!! For real. Not kidding. Do it. Now.
